Chapter 16 The Accident

Oh, My God! What happened to you? Why are you crying asked Ruchika to Isabelle?
Isabelle looked at Ruchika and walked away towards the washroom to wash her face. She came back with tears in her eyes. She said: I lost my job today. Bob tried helping me with a job with one of his client, but unfortunately, the person met with an accident and is now in a serious condition. While they were talking, her phone rang. Ruchika overhears the conversation. Isabelle was saying to someone: Yes, I will visit him at the hospital tomorrow. Once Isabella finished her call. She shrugged her shoulders saying: what a life God has given me. Things are just not working!

Ruchika felt sorry for her. She wanted to hug her but Isabelle ignored her and went into her room. Ruchika felt her behavior was weird but also understood that she was disturbed. She let her be!

Next morning, Ruchika accompanied Isabelle to the hospital.

There she saw Robby was sitting in the corridor with his head down. Ruchika let Isabelle visit her friend and stopped near Robby to ask him what was he doing there.

Robby had sadness written all over his face. He ignored Ruchika’s question and got up to go towards the water cooler to have some water.

Ruchika walked behind him, she hesitated for a moment but then put her hand on his shoulder and asked: What is the matter, Robby?
Robby shrugged his shoulders and asked: how does it matter to you?

Ruchika said: Treat me as your friend, please. I am here to help.

Robby smiled and said some other time. At this Ruchika excused herself and turned to see where Isabelle was but Robby stopped her insisting that they should now move to Bob’s office, as he would be waiting for them to hand over the case they had discussed last night.
They saw Isabelle coming out of the room. She announced that she will also accompany them to Bob’s office. They agreed to go together. Isabelle was driving and sobbing while Ruchika and Robby were looking out of the window car. In some time, all three reached Bob’s office together.

Isabelle was sitting quietly in Bob’s office. Ruchika thought maybe Isabelle was not comfortable in talking to Bob in their presence. She tried to comfort her but Isabelle refused to listen. Bob did not even bother to greet anyone of them today. He looked disturbed too. He suddenly was acting very professional with them. He looked at Ruchika and Robby and started telling them about the case instead of giving them Nancy’s file. The information he gave was very minimal. All he told them was that Nancy had come to his hospital after she went into a severe depression on meeting with an accident. In that accident, she had lost her only son who was only seven years of age at that time. Nancy had blamed and accused her husband of her son’s death because her son had inherited the property from his maternal grandfather.
The police investigated and closed the case as they found no foul play.
We helped her out of depression and she accepted the harsh reality. It has been years now, but no one from her family has contacted us. Would you help us?
He was looking at them. Ruchika and Robby nodded in affirmation and asked him for the address. Bob was searching her file for the address when Robby went behind him and read the address saying, Bob, you are old now.

Robby seemed to be more excited about the case. He did not even wait for Bob to finish. He held Ruchika’s arm and they were out of Bob’s office.


Ruchika asked him to wait but he told her firmly that he is the boss and Ruchika has to do what he asks her to do. Robby was smiling. He was full of curiosity to explore and had enthusiasm in his tone.

They traveled by bus. Ruchika was admiring the beautiful weather around when Robby asked her to get down.

We have to walk 2 miles extra from here said, Robby.
Ruchika insisted that Robby should ask someone the address since the place looked weird and lonely.

Robby: I know more than you. I have lived my maximum life here. Both of them were very surprised when they landed in a barren house.

It looks like, no one has lived here since ages said Ruchika to Robby.
Robby said: I think you are wrong, I am sure we will meet some ghosts inside.

He glanced at Ruchika’s face, The fear on her face made him laugh insanely.

Robby was a kind of a man who would often search for ways to make people laugh even in crazy situations. Ruchika was scared but walked along with him.

The garden of the house was totally destroyed and the fountain in front of the big gate was in a horrible state.

They walked further and saw that the house property was intact and nobody had tried to steal anything from there. They saw a huge lock on the main door.

Robby tried to clean the window with his hand but ended getting his hands dirty.
Ruchika was looking around when she saw a lady observing them.
She ran towards her but suddenly lost her. Robby came running after Ruchika and asked where was she going.

Ruchika said: I saw a lady here who was looking at us. Robby said: it is your imagination since there is no community around. How can someone be here? This house is almost in the woods, miles away from NewYork.
Ruchika was shocked and she screamed at Robby: What!! we are not in NewYork.
There was bewilderment in her tone. How will we go back, Robby?
Robby started laughing and said: the same way we came here Ruchika. What is the matter calm down!

Robby further said: I suggest for a day or two let us stay somewhere nearby. I think it will help us in getting some information on the family members of this house.
Ruchika said: But Robby I am here only for 15 days out of which 3 days have already gone. I don’t think it is possible to help Nancy in these 12 days. Let’s go back and tell Bob we can’t do this.

Robby turned Ruchika towards him, looked into her eyes and said: Look, we are here for a mission. Let us think positive to help instead of assuming the negative outcome of the situation. Trust me, no problem in this world exists without a solution. You have to keep faith within yourself and in me too.

Ruchika was looking deep into his eyes and some voice again whispered in her head saying: Not every man you meet is same. Sometimes destiny makes you meet people to answer the longing of your heart. Don’t judge him and don’t compare him with others. Just let it be!!
That was when she felt fascinated by his words. She could feel the calling of true love in his eyes. His touch was giving rise to strange sensations in her body and a warm feeling of love was arising in between both of them. They both immediately distanced themselves from each other as if both of them had felt the same spark for each other.

Robby asked her to wait in the barren house till he brought some food to eat.

What here? No way. I will come along: said Ruchika.

But we have no place to stay. We will need to break the lock of this house to enter: said, Robby

Ruchika felt uncomfortable and refused to live in the place where nobody had lived for years.

At last, they both decided to go further and look for a place to stay for a while. They were crossing the lonely lane while walking hand in hand as if they had known each other for years. They squinted at each other but did not say a word. The silence was talking between them. That was when Ruchika saw a tiny hut at the end of the lane. They rushed towards the hut. They looked inside but found no one.

Now there was no option. It was getting dark. Robby decided and told Ruchika that they will spend the night here only. Robby arranged barbeque with the woods around and told Ruchika to wait till he returned with something to eat.

Once alone, Ruchika had an urge to speak to her sister back in India to ask about how life was treating them. She wanted to know how her father was doing in the new place.

She searched for her cell phone but it was not in her bag. She thought to herself she must have dropped it somewhere.
She knew she could get a panic attack so to avoid that she started breathing deeply. She was tired and she actually didn’t realize that while practicing deep breathing she went into deep sleep.

Chapter 15 The Introduction

Embrace your pain The Beginning


Chapter 15 The Introduction

Ruchika slept till late in the afternoon. Isabelle had not bothered to wake her up, probably knowing that Ruchika had a long flight. Meanwhile, Robby reached Bob’s hospital sharp at 9 am. Bob gave him a form asking him to fill that would evaluate his personality type. He had to keep him busy till Ruchika arrived.

Ruchika woke up late. She prepared a cup of coffee for herself and searched fridge to eat something. The fridge had only leftovers of a pizza. The kitchen was very dirty. Ruchika looked around for Isabelle. She was not there. Ruchika thought to herself she must have left for work.
Ruchika called Bob and informed him that she would reach his hospital in another hour.

On her way to the hospital, she bought herself a big sandwich and a coke. On reaching the hospital, she saw a dark lady sitting outside the hospital sobbing. Ruchika went to her and asked her why she was crying and if Ruchika could help her in any way. The lady introduced herself as Varti from Papua Guinea. Varti was black and wearing a big golden and white dress. She was thin and was bald from the front which she carefully had hidden by wearing a black cloth on her head.
She looked in her 50’s.

Ruchika sat along with her there only and politely asked her the reason for her tears.
Varti: I was born and brought up in Papua Guinea, my hometown. I stay in Beverly Hills and was here to meet this doctor named Bob. Someone told me that he is the best doctor who could help me out, but I am scared thinking what would people say if they would know that I was here.
Ruchika held her hand and tried to calm her. She said: If you feel okay, you can share your problem with me. After all, I am a stranger and not from this country. Ruchika assured her that her story would remain secret with her.
Varti thought for a moment and then said: I am full of guilt, anger, and jealousy. I realize that nobody likes me. My husband has a small business. I have two sons. I have never been a good mother to them. I wanted them to be successful in life that was the reason I used to beat them and force them to study every time. One day my elder son left me. My younger one still stays with me but hates me. My husband is also happy when I am not around. I have often caught them partying behind my back. I fell in an extramarital affair. But that man also left me saying, I was too nosy. I used to be a working woman but no one liked me there too.

Ruchika felt sad for her and asked her about her relations with her colleagues.
Varti said: I saw them backbiting against me. I was very jealous of one girl in my office who was appointed as my partner in work. She was not only younger to me but was very beautiful too. I was so jealous of her that I went ahead and played games against her so that she would lose her job and when that didn’t work I used witchcraft to bring her unhappiness. The black magic I used, killed her father.
Oh! I am so bad what have I done, wailed Varti
She was crying uncontrollably and Ruchika sat by her side letting her emotions out.

After a while, Ruchika said: Since you have realized all your mistakes, I don’t think you are a bad person at all. You know jealousy and anger enter your life when you start comparing yourself to others. The day you will see the beauty in yourself there would be no looking back.
Am I beautiful, asked a surprised Vrati?
Ruchika: Indeed you are. It is for you to recognize yourself.
Vrati wiped her tears and said: I am so thankful to you for hearing me out. I am feeling so light. Thank you and yes, I promise that I will practice loving self and would also stop comparing myself to others.

Vrati got up to leave. Ruchika reminded her that she was here to see Bob. Vrati looked back and said smilingly: I don’t need the doctor now. I will practice what you asked and if that doesn’t work then I will come back to the doctor.

Ruchika smiled and went into the hospital. She reached Bob’s cabin in no time. Bob welcomed her with a hug. Ruchika saw Robby sitting in a corner with a paper and a pen. Robby saw Ruchika looking at him. He smiled back at her.

Bob gave the same personality evaluation test to Ruchika. She completed the test in minutes while Robby was still thinking what to write.

That was quick Ruchika, said Bob. He looked at Robby. Robby gave back the paper to Bob saying I could only fill few things.

Bob did not need any personality evaluation test for Robby since he had known Robby for long now.
But he was much interested in Ruchika’s test. He asked both of them to wait outside in the lobby while he evaluated their test.

Ruchika and Robby got talking while sitting in the lobby. Ruchika felt that Robby was a clean hearted person since he was quite vocal about his emotions. She somewhat liked him but his continues chatter and the ability of not listening irritated her.

Bob was observing both of them through his CCTV camera. He also evaluated Ruchika’s personality as a rescuer.
He decided it was time to make two minds meet. The business mind of Ruchika had to meet the innocent and careless mind of Robby.

He called both of them inside and told them that he is giving both of them a task as a team. He told his secretary Juno to look for the case files of his patients who have been living in his hospital for more than 3 years. Robby went into the record room along with Juno and came back with one file only whose name was Nancy. She was the oldest patient staying in his hospital. Her family had refused to take her back.
Bob thought for a while, then told both of them to work as a team and create such a strategy that the family would get convinced and take Nancy back to her home.

They both happily agreed. Suddenly Robby said: Who would lead who?
Ruchika had a history of being a manager so she assumed automatically that she would lead and Robby would follow, but Bob gave her a shock of her life when he said: of course you will lead and Ruchika would assist.

What? What are you saying Bob. I spoke to him while we were out waiting in the corridor and he seems to have no mind at all: said Ruchika.

Robby felt offended and said: how dare you say that. You still don’t know me. Who are you to judge me in minutes?

Ruchika realized that she was harsh and should have used her words carefully. She apologized immediately
Bob intervened saying: I will give Nancy’s case to both of you tomorrow to study. He turned towards Robby and said: Robby meanwhile, why don’t you take Ruchika out and help her in exploring New York.

By now Robby was irritated with Ruchika. He did not even want to look at her that time. Still, he gave her his dimpled smile and told Ruchika to follow him.

Ruchika rolled her eyes and followed him wondering where she has got herself stuck.

The day went by peacefully. Robby took Ruchika around and showed her some good places. Both of them had good food at an Indian Resturant, which was of course with Ruchika’s expenses. They both discussed their families and Robby told her that he was all alone in this world and was still struggling in his career.

Ruchika told him about her younger sister being settled in America itself. She told Robby how she was taking care of her father after her mother passed away. She also told him that she was here at Bob’s request for a change. She was here for 15days only.

Within some time, she realized that Robby is also a good listener too. He did not interrupt her even for a minute. But when Ruchika asked Robby about his life and family he kept on saying that he was all alone in this world. She realized that he was not comfortable talking about his personal life. After that, she did not bother him much.

She heard a voice in her mind: Sometimes people have a darker corner which they refuse to visit. They refuse to let light come enter in that corner because they let their fear, guilt, unwanted memories stay there. Do not force them. Let it be. In time, they would let you shine your light on that corner.

For split second she was puzzled wondering why she was hearing voices in her mind. She brushed away the idea as her silly imagination.

It was late at night when they reached Ruchika’s residence. They were friends now. Their perspective about each other had changed. Robby tried to hug her wishing her goodnight but she immediately distanced herself from him. She shook hands with him and wished him goodnight.

Robby smiled and nodded his head.
She closed the door smilingly. Robby turned to go home and chuckled: Wierd girl!!

When she entered her apartment, she saw Isabelle and all she could say was Oh my God!!


Chapter 14 The new Journey

Embrace your pain The beginning

Chapter 14 The new Journey

It was the end of one life and a beginning of the other. Ruchika wasn’t aware what waited for her. She decided to go with the flow this time. She was a kind of a person who would talk to people only if they spoke to her. The only difference that could be noted on her was her smile that was more welcoming.
Once on the flight, she was full of the thoughts of many ongoing things, about her past that she had. She kept thinking about her meeting with her mother and her message that she had to complete her mission on earth.
She wondered if her mission was to take care of her father or settle Twinkle in her marriage. What else could be her mission? Ruchika was baffled and in this turmoil, she slept and by the time she woke up she was already in New York!!
On reaching New York Ruchika’s phone buzzed with a message from Bob informing her that his secretary Juno was already at the airport to assist her. After a few minutes of walk, Ruchika saw Juno. She was holding a placard of her name Ruchika Khanduja.

Ruchika was much relieved on seeing Juno. They both greeted each other. Juno informed Ruchika that she would take her to meet Bob first and then she would drop Ruchika at the apartment that Bob had chosen for her.
Ruchika nodded and Juno hired a taxi to Bob’s office.
Once in the taxi, Ruchika got settled and sent a message to her sister informing her that she had reached New York safely.

Ruchika was busy checking her what’s app messages when she heard Juno sobbing. She was amazed. She asked her the reason for the tears in her eyes but Juno said it was nothing. Juno told Ruchika that because off Influenza her eyes were red. Ruchika asked the driver to pull over and forced Juno to walk a bit away from the cab. She then hugged Juno and said: Please I know we don’t even know each other but I request you to please tell me what is bothering you, Please.
At first, Juno disagreed. But after much persuasion by Ruchika, she broke up and told her that this morning she had lost the custody of her kids.

Ruchika let Juno speak her heart out. After she had heard her story she asked Juno about her work timings. Juno said it was 9 to 5, but to give lavish life to her kids she was doing two more jobs after 5 pm.

Ruchika was thinking. She then asked about Juno’s husband. What does he do? Juno said at present he is doing jobs only during the weekends and stays with the kids in the week.

Ruchika smiled and hugged Juno. Oh, Juno then where is the problem. As it is you are so busy during weekdays. Let your husband be with the kids . During weekends, when he is busy working you take care of them, take them out, be totally devoted to their needs.

See Juno, I have learned, life is not complicated but we humans make it complicated.

Juno understood and agreed with what Ruchika was trying to tell her. She smiled and said: Thank you so much. I understand what you say and shall do the same now. with this, they moved towards the cab and started their journey to Bob’s office.

Once in the cab, Ruchika felt that her heart is happy without any reason. She felt peaceful deep inside her heart.

They reached Bob’s office in some time. Juno hugged her for helping her with a solution and told her that she would be there for her if she needs anything during her 15 days stay here.

Ruchika smiled and walked towards Bob’s office.

She knocked the door of his office.
Bob asked her to come in and got up to hug her.
He observed that Ruchika was more confident and happy this time.
They both spoke about many things and Ruchika also shared with him about her Near Death Experience.

Bob asked Ruchika to take some rest for today and tomorrow morning he would give her round of his hospital and she can see how people get healed.

That was when Juno interrupted their conversation and said it is an emergency case Sir, Robby is back and he is having a panic attack.

Bob excused himself and asked Juno to drop Ruchika to her apartment.

Ruchika and Juno left Bob’s office. On her way, Ruchika asked Juno what is a panic attack. Juno told her that it is a sudden overwhelming feeling of acute and disabling anxiety like she had in the morning and Ruchika had helped her with. Ruchika said nothing and just smiled. Juno dropped Ruchika in some time and bid her Goodnight.

Meanwhile, Bob was handling Robby. Robby again had a panic attack and was crying because he again had lost his job. Bob was all ears to him, He held his hand and asked him to relax. Then Bob asked Robby: Okay Rob, tell me why did you lose this job. Robby answered: The job was not at all interesting. It was a monotonous thing and in all honesty, I wanted them to kick me out.

Bob asked him about the kind of job Robby had gone for.Robby replied: it was again of selling clothes in the shop. I love interacting with people so I thought this will be a good opportunity. But one of the staff people told me that I was being paid much less in comparison to other staff. I lost my cool and left that place. He burst into tears saying but now I don’t have that amount either because I messed it all.

Bob asked him to calm down and told him that he should take a break for the next 15 days. He said: You would be working for me, so you must not worry about the money.
Robby felt lighter and hugged Dr. Bob. Thank you so much for listening and also to your offer. When do I have to come to work? Bob was laughing inside and asked him to come tomorrow sharp at 9 am.

Robby happily went. He messaged Julie that he will make them meet tomorrow.

Ruchika reached her new apartment and realized that she would be sharing her apartment with a 19-year-old girl who had left her parents back in France and was here to make her career. Her father was a good friend of Bob, so Bob had given her this place to stay. She introduced herself as Isabelle to Ruchika.
Ruchika and Isabella instantly hit a friendly note. They started Chit-chatting as if they had been friends for long. Ruchika asked Isabella what line she wanted to make a career in and she realized that Isabelle had no clue, she was doing every job that was coming her way.

Isabelle asked Ruchika about her family and she told her about her father staying in India and sister staying in Beverly Hills but she chose to explore New York this time and is here to stay for 15 days.

Isabelle made a cup of coffee and welcomed her. Ruchika was very tired and said that she would go to her room and rest for a while.

Chapter 13 Let go!!

Embrace your pain The beginning





Chapter 13 Let go!!

At last, our mind is clear and the heart has bid goodbye to the clutter of pain we held inside for so long: said a much relieved Ruchika. Now shall we get rid of the clutter of home she asked? We need to do this now so that we can shift in two days and bid goodbye to this home.

Everyone wiped up their tears and asked Ruchika: what do you want us to do.

Ruchika said to her father: Why not begin with your room first?
The old man protested for a second saying I have all the necessary things, I don’t have any clutter in my room.
He saw both of his daughter’s face and then thought for a minute. He stood up in enthusiasm and said okay let’s do as you say.

Ruchika took out the big suitcase lying above his almirah and started packing his clothes. She only packed his clothes that she had seen him wearing daily and were actually of his size now. Other clothes which were old fashioned and not of his now size were thrown in a big bed sheet. This included his wedding suit too!

Ruchika’s father saw his wedding suit being thrown in the bedsheet.
He rushed in and asked Ruchika in a harsh tone: Why are you throwing my suit. Don’t you know it is special to me.

Ruchika said: I am only packing your clothes that you wear daily. What would you do with these old-fashioned suits now and these track suits of your younger years? They have been lying in your almirah for so long. These can be used by those people who do not have clothes to wear.

That was when Ruchika’s father face turned red and he shouted: Are you nuts? And by the way what will someone do with my wedding suit.

Ruchika and Twinkle burst out laughing together. Ruchika smiled and said: Dad! Its time to create new memories, please let it go!
The old man shook his head in desperation and went away furiously. Ruchika took out a box from his almirah which was full of the ancient currency of all the countries including Indian coins of yesteryears. She immediately asked her sister to take it to her room without letting their father know.
Twinkle’s eyes widened and she said: But sister, he saved it to show it to our kids.
Ruchika looked at her sister and said: Twinkle, stop behaving like Dad! The kids of this generation are least interested in History. Still, if you want to show them these ancient coins and notes take some pictures. I know a place where I can sell them and get a good amount.

Twinkle nodded her head and did as her sister asked her to do.

Here, father, your room is cleaned, announced Ruchika.
Cleaned! He screamed. You have thrown away almost everything. I am also from ancient time throw me too in some old age home.

Ruchika hugged her father saying how can I? You are my darling father. Please don’t get attached to things that you don’t use.
Donate them. Do you know, when it would be given to someone who does not have or has seen such clothes they would give you thousands of blessings?
The old man was burning with anger but kept quiet.
Soon the doorbell rang, there was a man who was there to take away their car.
Now, why are you giving this car away: asked her father Ruchika said: Do you drive now? Did this machine help you in taking me to the hospital on time to save my life?
But you are fine now, and for God sake, you can drive it, yelled Ruchika’s father.
He kept on giving her lectures but Ruchika was not listening at all. She gave the car keys and papers to the man and took the cheque from him.

She turned towards Twinkle and said it’s your turn now my dear sister. Let’s go to your room. Their father shook his head and went away.
My clutter? I have only a few things here sister.
Let’s see, said Ruchika.
Once in Twinkle’s room, she opened her almirah. She took out many things including a big box that has greeting cards of school friends and family that were given to her when she was a kid.
Ruchika threw that box in the dustbin.
What? What are you doing sister, these are my memories.
Ruchika said: when did you see them last?
Twinkle said: No, I mean sometimes. Okay, but once in a blue moon, I look at these cards and recall those moments.

Ruchika nodded and sarcastically asked her sister to let go!
Look at the future now. Create new beautiful memories with your present family. You are not even aware where all these people are. No one has bothered to keep in touch with you.

Twinkle with tears in her eyes threw all into the dustbin. She understood Ruchika was saying the truth. In so many years she had no time to look at these letters or cards.

Ruchika moved towards her almirah. She threw away many of her dresses. Several clothes that she never wore, many which were old fashioned and held some memories for her.
Twinkle asked her: but why are you throwing your dresses.
She saw her father standing behind Twinkle. Both had questions in their mind running them wild.
She smilingly said I too need to let go of past!
When I was dead, I was not even bothered about my material possessions. With these words, she quickly moved towards the kitchen.
With the help of her sister, she threw crockery that they had not used in years but had kept thinking that one day they will use it.
She packed more bundles of useless things with the help of her sister.
This included their sofa’s in the living room which they had been seeing since her childhood.

Two big trucks came by afternoon. They took away all that was asked by Ruchika to take away. Things that were useless and lying in their home since ages.
Her home now was left with only beds, almirah, and her study table. Rest all the things has been donated to NGO’s.

Ruchika’s father was very annoyed. He screamed why are you leaving the remaining furniture, donate that too.

No father, we need this if we give our house for rent replied Ruchika very politely.

He stood up and went to his room. Ruchika felt calmer.
Next day, in the morning, another truck came and took all the things that the family purchased at the time of Twinkle’s marriage for her but she never took them.

Ruchika decided to use them in her new home. The family along with the things jumped into the lorry bidding goodbye to the house where they had spent their maximum years, recalling births and deaths of loved ones.

Everyone’s heart was heavy but they had to Let go!

They entered the new home with happiness and prayers in their hearts. Ruchika and Twinkle started organizing their home immediately. First, they went in to organize their father’s room so that he could rest. After that, Both the girls went to set the kitchen. By night the house was in perfect shape.

They all were very tired. Ruchika ordered some dinner from outside and after dinner.

Next morning Ruchika’s phone kept buzzing throughout the day. The calls were from different NGO’s calling to thank her for her help in donating them the goods.

Ruchika knew her father was still angry. She made her father hear every call she received.
At last, he smiled.

The family felt greeted by the new place and new neighbors. It was difficult for them to adjust but they had to. Twinkle gave the new address to her husband so that he may not end up at the old address.

Change is inevitable, even if you do not want, it comes on its own time and pushes you to move from your comfort zone to experience something new said Ruchika to herself while watching out from the window of her bedroom.

It was time for her to pack her bags and bid goodbye to the lonely life she was leading.
She said to her sister its time for me to take a break now. I want to start afresh. Twinkle hugged her sister. Her father hugged her and ask her to take care of herself and come back soon.

Ruchika left the home while leaving a surprise for her father.
Next day, his younger sister visited him. She told him that Ruchika had called her and requested her to spend some time with them at their new residence.

Her father knew that she did that so that he could have company while her sister too could enjoy some change and a good time with them.
Ruchika had become very thoughtful now. She was a changed woman.

Chapter 12 Confession

Embrace your pain The begining

Chapter 12 Confession

Ruchika texted me her flight details, she also said in her message that before leaving for New York she needs to clear clutter not only from her house but from her heart and mind too. She on purpose chose the date three days after our meeting.

I forwarded that same message to Bob so that he can make arrangements for her.
My heart was so happy that it seemed to me that my hometown Bangalore was welcoming me back. The weather was awesome. The cool breeze kissed my cheeks. The best part being in Bangalore was that I could breathe.
It was my time with my family. The two days of my life that I snatched from them now I had to return them by pampering them. So here I was, at my house, giving rest to the counselor and tarot reader in me. It was time to awaken a kitchen fairy in me for my family, preparing their most favorite dishes. It was time to listen to their stories and tell mine.

Ruchika’s house was silent after the guests were gone. It was just Ruchika, her sister Twinkle and her father sitting in the living room.

It was time for her father and sister to let her know how much agony they felt once they saw her dead.
Ruchika was smiling and hearing their grief, they cried and let their stress out. All three of them had food together like a happy family. After the meal, when everyone was preparing to bid good night to each other, Ruchika broke her silence, she said it’s my turn now I want to talk to both of you.

Twinkle and her father looked at each other and sat there at the dining table itself.
Ruchika said: Twinkle, I am sorry.
For what, sister?
For all the unhappiness and heartaches I have given to you.
To you too dad for misbehaving when I was depressed.
They both were smiling. Her sister held her hand and said it’s okay. We are glad that you are back.
She looked at her sister Twinkle and continued saying I know that you often blamed me for the problems you faced in your marriage.
You always thought that you could have found a better husband if I had not pushed you to marry him but my dear sister, I only supported your decision. It was you who wanted to stay with him without marriage and to be truthful if not Satya, than someone else would have made your life miserable, so stop blaming me or your husband for your problems. Try to find out where the barrier lies. I do understand that you were far away from us and yearned for our emotional support but that happens with every girl my dear.
You did not take the responsibilities of your action that gave birth to depression first and then to your daughter but trust me, I wasn’t aware of your inner turmoil. I thought you were happy.

That is why it is said that in marriages, depression comes easy because it was you who have to take responsibility for your action. You have to give without expecting back my dear.

Twinkle intervened and said angrily, but I never said anything to you over the phone or otherwise.
But in your heart, you did curse me, whereas, I was only trying to make your life happy said Ruchika.
I was upset with you when you came to India last time to meet mom. Remember, you told me how much you had to spend in coming here. The money that I gifted to your daughter was more than enough to cover your expenses. Isn’t it?

Twinkle lowered her eyes in shame.

I also know that you and your husband thought that I am not getting married because I wanted this whole property and you called dad to ask him to transfer your share. I heard him assuring you that you will get your share.

Twinkle’s mouth was wide open this time and Ruchika’s father too was taken aback. They both asked her together how do you know about our conversation.

Ruchika smiled and said I know plenty of things now.
This conversation, I overheard, since I had sleepless nights when mom was unwell.

Papa, I know that the theft that happened in our house was planned. I also know that even after your promised my mother that you will not gamble, you did and lost a huge amount and my maximum hard earned money was gone in covering your loss. I know that the burglars were none other than the workers who were making the next building and that is the reason you allow these nasty loafer women with the foul smell to enter our house.
By this time, Ruchika’s father was boiling in anger. He was about to open his mouth to say something.
Ruchika noticed that and asked him to wait. She continued saying that she is not finished yet. She said: She too has been selfish.

She said: I learned that it was money that could control anything in this world and I threw an enormous amount of money in front of both of you to let you know that I don’t need your property i.e this house of yours, father! She stood up opened the cabinet near the dining table and gave the papers of property she had purchased in Gurgaon and one in America for her sister to both of them. She had given them copies since the original was in her bank locker. She gave them the papers saying this is the reason I did not marry! I was holding a strong grudge against both of you in my heart. I am sorry.

And another reason for staying single is that I have worked hard and have earned so much money that I felt secure somewhere and I did not want anyone to barge in. My mind would let me think that every guy I met was interested in my money and not in me and often guys have played with my emotions to get my money. I was devastated. I realized that even relationships are on sale. There is no value for emotions and love left in this world.

Ruchika stood up and left both of them to ponder on what she said. They both got up and went to their respective rooms without even saying any word to each other. It was difficult for them to digest what Ruchika had said.

Next morning, Twinkle and her father knocked the door of her room. She let them in. Twinkle kneeled on her knees and apologized.
She said: Whatever you said last night was difficult for us to digest sister. I agree, my head was full of negative thoughts when I got married to Satya, my husband.
I did curse you in my heart because when he wanted to leave me after we stayed together without marriage for a year, you forced me to hold him by carrying his baby. I did what you asked, assuming things will be easy but it turned out to be atrocious in return. I tried searching job after our daughter was born but I was bounded by my duties of taking care of my baby. Satya did not support me the way I thought he would. I had to take care of our baby on my own. I was fed up with his tantrums. He was not ready to share the responsibility. Yes, that was the time I cursed you in my heart.
Later, I became more selfish and often prayed that you should not get married so that money keeps flowing into my account and I can live my life peacefully. I am sorry!

That was when the father, who was standing behind Twinkle, sat down on the sofa and said I am old now I cannot kneel down like your sister but yes, I too was not in favor of your marriage, I wanted your money. Also, I did not want to lead a lonely life. I was scared to live alone after your mother’s death. Yes, I sent the burglars. I had seen the way you were spending money on your mother. I became greedy and could not hold myself. They both started crying.
Ruchika smiled and said, Its okay. It had to happen. That is why I have decided to leave this house and would stay in our house in Gurgaon.

Father, We will give this house for rent so that you can get your monthly income even if I am dead again and Twinkle the house that I bought in America is for you.
It is up to you what you want to do with it. I hope the money won’t stop flowing if you too give it on rent. Rest is your choice.
I have tried making arrangements that money would not be a problem for both of you even if I leave this world again.
All of them hugged and started their day as if there had been no such discussion in the family.
The day began only to strike anger one more time on Ruchika’s father and her sister’s face. Ruchika had still lots going on in her mind.

Chapter 11 Persuasion or Influence

Embrace your pain The Begining

Chapter 11 Persuasion or Influence

While I was bidding goodbye to Ruchika, I could hear my phone buzzing. It was Bob trying to speak to me through skype. He had heard from Richard how miraculously Ruchika had come back from the other world.

Bob was very happy and excited about the news. It seemed he was all charged up. He told me to immediately speak to Ruchika about her plans to visit New York. I assured him that I had tried doing that already, but Ruchika insisted that she wanted some time. Bob kept quiet and it seemed that he was seriously thinking about something.

I intervened between his thoughts and asked him what was bothering him. Bob said, Julie, I think we should not give her so much space and time to think since its seen in such cases people fall back with their old habits pretty soon.

Ah!! how much I wanted to tell Bob about Ruchika’s Near Death Experience but couldn’t because I was already bound by a promise of not sharing her secret.

He said Jules, you have time until tomorrow morning. I want you to persuade her since she is already influenced by your personality.
I: What are you trying to say, Bob? I don’t understand.
Bob: Look, Julie, Ruchika can easily fall back into her older pattern. At present, she is enjoying everyone’s attention but this drama would end soon. That is the time when she would start getting panic attacks.
I: No Bob, I don’t think it would happen. It seems the other world has sent her back calm and composed. She is a changed girl.
Bob was not ready to listen to me at all. He started telling me what I should be doing next. He even asked me to sit with pen and paper so that I could make notes. We discussed at length about Ruchika. In my hearts of hearts, I also wanted to help Ruchika live happily. We spoke till one a.m. in the morning. I chose to use my spiritual psychology and disconnected Ruchika’s etheric chords with things that she was clinging on to even after her return from the dead. After praying for her and sending her distant healing I went to sleep by 2:30 a.m.

I was really exhausted and had no energy. I immediately dozed off to my dream world.

It was 9 a.m when I woke up the next morning. I immediately called Meera, but she too was sleeping. It seemed that we both had a peaceful sleep after a long time.

We got ready and reached Ruchika’s residence. To our surprise, people were still visiting and talking to her father. I saw him busy telling them stories about how Ruchika had come back to life.

Ruchika and her sister were still dressed up in tracksuits. Both the sister looked like twins. They were having some serious discussion with a man who seemed to be inspecting their house.

I was happy to see both the sisters laughing together. Soon that man left saying that he would send the quotation by evening. Ruchika told us that she along with her sister had decided to get the house redesign. They will go and stay in Gurgaon for that time period.
Meera asked how much time does the contractor need?
Twinkle said it could take a month or two. She further added that shifting to Gurgaon for some time is a safe bet because Julie has told Ruchika to get rid of the antique items in the home and that would not at all be possible with their father being around.

I: That’s great news. By the way Twinkle, how long are you going to stay back, I inquired.
Twinkle: I had thought of leaving this week, but my husband is anxious to come and meet Ruchika. He is coming along with my daughter. Maybe we would stay for 15 or 20 days more, she said it with a smile just like her sister.
Ruchika and Meera went inside to prepare tea for everyone. I recalled Bob’s words and continued my chat with Twinkle.
Twinkle, I am sure Ruchika must have told you how she got in touch with me.
Twinkle: Yeah, she told me that you are a Tarot Card Reader.
I nodded and said my husband is a psychologist. We are trying to help Ruchika come out of her depression so that she can lead a healthy life.
Twinkle considered me someone who was there to make money said no, no she is fine now. We don’t need any consultation. She said this in a rude tone.
I: I am not talking about consultation here, I am talking about helping her to start a new life and getting married.
I was firm and to the point, making it clear to her that it was not about making money but was about genuinely helping Ruchika.
Twinkle was quietly staring at me I think my tone had conveyed my intentions to her. She then said how do you want me to help with this.
I asked her to persuade Ruchika to visit New York for two weeks until the time Twinkle was in India. Twinkle could take care of their father and also look into the renovation work. She kept quiet and it seemed she was thinking hard. She suddenly asked, why New York?
I told her that I have a friend who is also a psychologist and has a psychiatry hospital running there. He has already invited Ruchi. Sometimes small changes and visiting a place that you have never seen can create the best memories.
My fingers were crossed and I was praying for her to agree with me.
She kept on staring outside for a while and then said: I assure you didi will travel to New York by tomorrow’s flight. You can ask your friend to make arrangements. With this, she looked at me and smiled.
I was very happy. She stood up and so did I but I was not aware of her next action.
She hugged me tightly and said thank you for all that you did and all that you are doing.
Meera and Ruchika came out with the tea. We all sat and chit-chatted about how life was in America. That was the time when I asked Ruchika if she had made any decision for traveling to New York yet.

Meera too said, yes take a break Ruchika then come back and search for a job.
Twinkle too persuaded her saying I am here in India right now and would take care of papa and that way you won’t be worried about him too.

Ruchika looked at me and understood that Twinkle and I were together in this and we both were pushing her on purpose. She said if you all want this then be it. She went into her room and came back with her passport. She smilingly said my US visa is still valid hence I don’t need to visit the Embassy.
We all were smiling and so was the old man who was sitting outside listening to our conversation.
It looked like everyone wanted her to live.
I glanced at my watch. It was almost 3 pm. Meera understood and before I could say anything she said, it’s time for us to leave since we also need to catch our flight. I looked at her and we both smiled in agreement. That was when I was dying to be with my family and I wanted to rush back to my universe.


Chapter 10 The Awakening

Embrace your pain The begining

Chapter 10 The Awakening

It was Ruchika. My expressions told her that I was not expecting her at this hour.
I recalled Meera had called Ruchika in the afternoon, informing her that we were sightseeing and would reach our hotel late night. She had also told her that we would visit her the next morning before we left Delhi. I wondered how did she knew that we have reached the hotel. Lots of questions were swirling in my mind when Ruchika broke the stillness and said: I told you, I will meet you before you leave Delhi.
I: Indeed, and that is the reason Meera and I planned to visit you tomorrow morning.
Ruchika stood at the door with a smile on her face. I realized I had not invited her in.

Oh! I am sorry, please come in. She entered the room.
I noticed Ruchika was wearing a pink tee with white trousers. She had chosen bright colors instead of darker shades. She wore light pink make up. Her hair was tied high in a ponytail. She was wearing white sandals. I saw her cuticles were shining, though there was no nail polish on them and her skin was glowing.
I said: Ruchika you look different. Your skin is glowing and I really like your attire.
Ruchika smiled and sat comfortably on the sofa.
I was about to call Meera when Ruchika stopped me asking me to sit with her.
She said: I am here to meet you. Let her take rest. I will meet her tomorrow morning.
She continued, I wanted to offer my gratitude for the support you gave me when I was deaf to your healing words. The negativity in me had given birth to a false ego making me think that I knew everything and the way this world works.
Remember, the day before Diwali. I had left your place promising you that I will do as you had asked me to.

I: Yes, I remember that night vividly. Recalling how our pandora’s box was opened. I continued saying but recently when we made a visit to your house upon receiving the news of your death. I noticed that the sewage was cleaned but when I entered your house, I couldn’t spot anything which could tell me that you have actually worked on my advice.

Ruchika laughed and said: I didn’t. I overlooked all your suggestions. Even the sewage that you saw, It was the Municipal Corporation Department people who came on their own to clean it.

Oh! I had no words.

She observed my embarrassed expressions. She held my hand feeling sorry and said: it was not my fault, it was my inflated ego that was guiding me.
I said: It’s okay Ruchika, I very well understand.
She continued saying, Julie, when I left my body something unusual happened. I met my mother!
I looked at her and recalled my cards, the queen of cups and the Empress as an additional message. My cards guided me right I said to myself, but what happened next was my curiosity now.
I kept smiling.
She continued speaking.
She said: I was shocked to see my body in front of my eyes. I saw my father crying and I tried hard to get into my body, but I couldn’t. Later, I thought it was okay to leave this body as it is it was giving me suffering and aches unnecessarily. It was then I started searching white light because that is all we have seen in movies and also heard from elders that some white light comes to take your soul to God.

I least realized that my case was different. When I looked around searching the white light, I saw a beautiful young lady. The moment our eyes met she smiled and opened her arms to embrace me. At first, I hesitated a bit, but my soul recognized her. She was my mother. I ran towards her. She hugged me and at that moment I was just thanking God for making me meet her.
I asked my mother how come she looked so young? She smiled and asked me to close my eyes. In split seconds we were in some other world where I saw night and day playing hide and seek. The night would turn into a day if you moved a step further and the moment you took your step back you entered into the night again.I started playing but my mother held my hand and we moved ahead. Here, I saw blooming of the most beautiful flowers. I have never seen such beautiful colors on earth. Such brightness, happiness, and peace.

Ruchika was telling me everything with her eye closed as if she was witnessing it. I did not stop her and let her speak. She continued saying:
I wanted to capture every bit of it. I saw beautiful big parks that had talking trees and there were some Angels, actual Angels who were teaching something to numerous groups of souls. I remember until the time I was there I was only smiling. There was nothing else on my mind. I had no emotions. I wasn’t thinking about my earthly life or of the pain I had left my loved ones in. I did not even bother to get back into my body.

My mother then took me to a place where she said we could review our lives on earth. It was a huge room with lots and lots of big books. The room had no lights but it had so much of brightness that for a minute I could not open my eyes. My mom made me sit on a big royal chair and said: Ruchi, now it’s time to check whether you completed your mission on earth. The real reason for which you were sent to earth.

I was confused and asked her what she was talking about. She told me then, that we all are souls and we keep taking births in various forms to complete our journey to become better and peaceful souls. We as humans need to progress on daily basis on earth to finish the circle of life and death and to reach Salvation!

Progress on earth, I questioned my mother
Yes, said she. She asked me if I had seen the groups in the park when we were coming to this room. She told me that
they were getting ready to go to earth. Some of them will take birth as humans and some of them will act as their guiding forces, which are casually known as a subconscious voice. The subconscious voice will keep guiding them to make earth a better place to live for.

My mother asked me if I remembered that in her last days on earth she used to cry a lot.
Yes, I remembered I told her. I often used to recall those days while on earth.
My mother continued saying, I was crying because I was told that my end was near and I was worried what will happen to you if I would die.
But my soul family assured me that you will be in good hands.
Upon reaching here, we conspired that you meet Julie again. She is the one who had guided you right and also would be your friend in long run without any selfish motives. But you did not heed our advice and kept on praying for death to come.
Now, as you are here you will have to first pass the test of life! She smiled and said: You will only be allowed to enter the Golden Gate when it is clear that you have accomplished your mission on earth for which you were sent for.

I asked her what mission was she talking about.

She smiled and said you will know. I have become your soul family and I will guide you now. Listen to your heart.

Tears started rolling from Ruchika’s eyes but she continued her story.
She said: I told my mother that I didn’t want to go back. I was happy there with her.

That was when a huge man smilingly interrupted our conversation and said let me show you how your life would have been if we would let her live disease free.
Suddenly the sky became the t.v screen and I saw my mother getting free of her disease. We were a happy family for a while and then a negative force took over her and she started using me to get more money. I saw myself getting drained and one day I saw myself dying cursing her. He paused the film and said would you have liked this?
This way you would make her karma go negative and she would have to work even harder to get back to this level where she is at present.
What do you mean by this level, I asked that huge man who was wearing a golden robe with white bands.
He smiled, and in seconds he made me visit hell. It was a dark cold place.I could only hear people screaming and crying for forgiveness. It felt little insects were crawling on every part of my body. I screamed for help. That was when an angel held my hand and then took me to a place which looked like more of the earth with negative and positive people roaming around. He then pulled me back to where we were. This is the level nearer to the God he said and very few souls reach here. Do you want her to go down from here?
I said no, not at all.

That was when he said, now let’s see if you do not get back into your body what happens?
I saw that because of my stubbornness, I was punished to stay at a lower level that was more like earth. I saw tears in my eyes.Also, I was not allowed to meet my mother since she was on the higher level.
He said you are progressing right now, but if you want to stay here, you have to go back to accomplish your mission.

I asked him how can I stay on earth without my mother
That was when I saw both of them laughing together. He smiled from cheek to ear and said: you have such emotions only on earth my dear. Once you leave the body there are no emotions left for the family and friends that you left behind.
He continued saying that your mother is here only for some moments. She is here only to introduce you to this new world. She will not stay here with you if you think so! My mother added that she was about to embark on her new journey soon and she could not progress until I help her out.

I asked her, how could I help her.
That was when she said I need to take a new birth in order to progress further.
For her, the emotions with our family had dissolved the day she reached heaven but she said that she will be with me till I settle down to my life on earth. She took me back to earth telling me that in her next birth she would be a boy and would look exactly like her mother that was when suddenly I opened my eyes. I realized I am back to my earthly life.
We both discussed a lot of things. Some I don’t remember and certain things I can’t share with you she said smilingly.

I was listening to her without interrupting her and realized that this was the first time in my life I was hearing a first-hand account of NDE. I also understood that I had come into her life for some reason. I asked her about her plans and she smiled saying that she has lost her job since the post she was on could not remain empty for a longer period.

I instantly said now this is what I called God’s forced vacation for a workaholics like you.

We both laughed.

I asked her if she is interested in exploring America since Bob has already invited her to New York. She said she would think about it.

By now it was already 10 pm. Her cell phone was ringing. She spoke to her sister and got up to leave. She promised that she will meet me tomorrow morning with Meera at her place. Also asking me to keep this meeting as our little secret.

I nodded my head and she left my hotel room leaving me with thousands of things to ponder on…

Chapter 9 Return from the Dead

Embrace your pain the begining

Chapter 9 Return from the Dead

It was 4 am in the morning and I was in the dream world when my phone seemed to be ringing continuously. Somehow, I forced my self to return from my astral journey. It was Meera, trying to wake me. I picked up the phone while still at the alpha level and said Hello.
Meera’s voice was shaking with fear. It jolted me to reality instantly.
What happened Meera, are you okay?
There was pin drop silence on the other end.
I: Hello, hello Meera are you listening. By now I was wide awake with fear dancing all around me. I had weird thoughts striking me. What if Meera could not take Ruchika’s death in her stride and had done something silly to herself. I wondered what will I do if anything happened to this lady here in an unknown city.

That was when I heard Meera’s meek voice saying Ruchika is alive Julie!
I breathed easy when I heard her voice.
Listen Meera, Ruchika is gone. Accept it and if you are scared or depressed you are most welcome to come into my room and sleep.

I am not scared. I received a call from Ruchika’s father at 3 am saying that Ruchika is back to life!
I screeched. What? What are you talking about Meera?
I think we need to visit the hospital right away Julie.
I couldn’t understand what was going on. I asked her to give me a minute or two to come back to my senses and with those words, I kept the phone down.

I wondered what was going on. Was I dreaming or I actually heard those words. Ruchika is back to life!

I washed my face, had a glass of water and sat there thinking of the conversation I just had with Meera. Was it true? How could it be?

I went in Meera’s room. We discussed if it was safe to go out this early. Also, I was sure the hospital people will not allow visitors that early. I told Meera to discuss this with Ruchika’s father and then we will decide what to do. I told her till then I would go back to my room and freshen up.

Back in my room, I was surrounded by thousands of questions with impossible explanations. How was it possible? I decided to take guidance from my tarot cards. They were indicating that she is with her mother but on earth. I said to myself, my cards were so damn accurate. I was eagerly waiting for Meera’s call. I picked up my cell phone to message this shocking news to Richi when I realized that Ruchika’s father had also sent me a message saying: My daughter Ruchika is back to life. Happy to share this news.

While reading this message I was smiling and thanked God for not letting me fail. I instantly asked myself what was I saying: Thank you God for not letting “ME” fail. How did I fail? I tapped my head smiling foolishly. Meera called up saying that Ruchika’s father had said that we could come by 7 am. She added so let’s catch up on our sleep and meet by 7. I told her I would meet her at the reception by 7.
But could we sleep was the question?
I was curious even though I tried sleeping, I twisted and turned from one side to another in bed. I could not sleep. I wanted to call Richard but it was way too early. The time refused to pass. I chose to have a cup of tea. I was sitting on the sofa by the window side.It was so beautiful outside. The darkness was slowly being taken over by light. Just like the tears turn into a smile. Something inside me felt peaceful as if I had won over a tornado within. I ordered breakfast in my room only and was ready by 6: 30 am to leave.

Meera came into my room at 6 am itself. I saw her smiling from cheek to ear. She was not only excited but happy. It seemed the guilt on her heart had also gone. We both had breakfast together. Meera called up her home and spoke to her kids in the video chat. Suddenly her focus had also changed. The unhappiness which had engulfed us had left thankfully.
We both were excited to meet Ruchika. We left our hotel by 6:30 am. On our way, I saw Meera’s eyes twinkling. She said can you believe my best friend is back. I could feel and understand her happiness because deep down I was happy too.

We reached hospital very early and had to stand outside. Meera called Ruchika’s father who came out with a special pass for us to visit Ruchika. Once inside Meera ran towards a woman to hug her. That was Ruchika’s sister Twinkle.
Twinkle had reached Delhi this morning to this big happy news. Her father said to me: That is my younger one. She is so lucky. She has brought her sister back from the dead.

The doctor approached Ruchika’s father to sign some papers. While signing papers I could see happiness dancing on his face. He Squinted at me and said we are taking Ruchika back home. The doctor says she is perfectly fine.
I nodded my head smilingly and looked for Meera so that we could meet Ruchika, but to my surprise, both the ladies were already inside Ruchika’s room while here I was engaged in talking to her father.
The old man could not hold his excitement. He was calling each and everyone to inform Ruchika’s come back from the dead!
I stepped into Ruchika’s room. Her face was glowing and the luster in her hair was miraculously back. Today she did not need any makeup to brighten her beauty. Her big smile was enough to compliment her looks.
I smiled back and held her hand. Meera and Twinkle said that they would go and get some coffee and left the room.

I took a deep breath and smilingly said welcome back to life lady. You scared the hell out of me. She smiled and hugged me saying, I don’t know why and how I feel connected with you, Julie. Also, thank you for praying for my soul.
I was taken aback and asked what? How do you know I did that?
She smiled and said in a naughty tone I know a lot now! I would like to offer my gratitude for thinking me as part of your family. I know you and Meera both cried a lot for me and prayed for my soul when you were on the flight.

But.. How do you know all this? I questioned and replied on my own only saying: Meera must have told you that.

She said no, nobody told me anything. I just know

But How? I was shell-shocked

She was smiling and her eyes were saying something which I was not able to interpret. That was when a nurse interrupted our conversation and told Ruchika that she could leave now.

The old man brought all the bills to Ruchika. She asked him to pay the bills using her debit card. He looked at her and she very coolly said: Dad the card is in your pocket.

He was stunned and said how do you know that.

Ruchika smiled and said: Twinkle told me. He stood there as if he was trying to recall something but by that time Ruchika went to the washroom to change.

He said to himself, but Twinkle was not around when I had taken the card. In bewilderment, he left the room.

We all went together to Ruchika’s home. Her neighbors were all around to welcome her and so were her relatives. That whole day, Ruchika sat in her living room like a smiling statue listening to everyone. I wondered how much patience she had.
I asked Meera since everything is fine now, I think we should go back to Banglore today only.

While I was talking to Meera, Ruchika overheard our conversation and requested me to stay one more night in Delhi.

But why I asked. She insisted that we stayed.
She asked our hotel address and our room numbers. She said, since it was impossible to talk here, she would visit us in the evening. In corous, we both agreed and left Ruchika’s home.
While going back Meera again planned to show me a bit of Delhi and have lunch somewhere in a restaurant. Lunch was okay but was I really interested in exploring Delhi, I asked myself.

We went back to our hotel to catch on some sleep. It was still 11 am when Richard called and I told him the story of Ruchika’s returning from the dead. He too was in shock but was happy too. I told him that I have to stay here since Ruchika had insisted and my dearest hubby agreed happily. Ummmm maybe he was enjoying a bit of his freedom I thought!

Meera called me asking if I was ready so that we could go out for our lunch and also for exploring Delhi.

I really had no option so we left. We reached CP and took a bus called YoYo bus. This bus basically takes you all around Delhi. The day went by happily. We did lots of shopping and we reached our hotel around 8 pm. We looked at the time and decided that we would get up early next day and go and meet Ruchika before leaving for Bangalore. Since it was too late to visit her home.

I went into my room and started packing my things. Suddenly the doorbell rang. I wondered why Meera had come back when I had just bid her good night. I opened the door and was surprised.

Chapter 8 Ruchika’s funeral

Embrace your pain the begining

Chapter 8 Ruchika’s funeral


I checked my SMS. It said Ruchika had passed away last night. The body has gone for postmortem and the cremation would be done tomorrow.

I was shocked! I called the number immediately. It was answered by Ruchika’s father who confirmed her death adding she did not even got married and has left the world.

I felt sorry for the old man. Before I could say anything I saw Meera’s number flashing on my cell. I told Ruchika’s father that I will call him back and disconnected the call.
I called back Meera. She was calling me to give this ghastly news only. She was devastated. She was crying uncontrollably. I too was in tears but I had no words to calm her down. Meera asked me if I would like to accompany her to Delhi.
I was in two minds because it was the first day of play school of my twin toddlers. I told her I need some time to think.
I was also receiving phone calls and whats app messages from my clients asking my time for their readings, but I was not sure of my programme. I told everyone that I would revert back to them.

Since it was a special day for us, the first day of our kids in playschool. Richard and I went together to drop them. Richard was hearing my conversations over the phone but was not sure about who I was talking about. I actually had to switch off my phone for a while since it was continuously ringing. Richard was trying to read my silence and ultimately on our way back home, he asked me the reason for my anxiety.

I told Richard about what had happened. He hugged me and said its part of life, my love.

Visit their family if you want, I will take care of kids. It won’t be difficult to manage while having our family staying close by.

My hands were still shaking. It was not easy to digest the news. Richard squinted at me and just held my hand reassuring me silently that all would be well.

We arrived home back. Richard prepared tea for both of us. While sipping tea I said: I really wish I could help her looking at Richard.

Richard embraced me in his arms and said: My love, you did whatever you could. Even Bob and I tried, but sweetheart, sometimes the destiny is much stronger. You just can’t change destiny.

He saw that I was sobbing, ignoring my tears he said by the way, how come you got so attached to this client of yours?
I looked at him confused. I shrugged my shoulders and said I don’t know, I really don’t know, why!!!

Soon after Richard left, my sister Silvia arrived. Probably Richard had a word with her on his way to his office. She assured that she will take care of the kids and I should not worry.

She had heard the story of Ruchika. She too said, there have been numerous cases of depressed people you have handled but you have never been attached to any one of them like this. Why this lady Julie?

My sister added: I want you to sit with yourself and think about it. Right now, get ready and let me help you in packing your bags. Pay your last visit to this woman.

My sister was younger to me but she was much wiser. I immediately called Meera and told her that I would accompany her to Delhi and asked her to meet me at the airport directly.

One more time I had to travel to Delhi, the place I detest the most. I thanked my sister for her support and left Banglore with Meera.

Meera was inconsolable. Ruchika and Meera were childhood friends. She was feeling guilty of not giving her much time and love when she needed the most.
I was all ears to her. In my heart, I was praying for Ruchika’s soul to rest in peace.

The moment flight landed in Delhi, we were caught up in smog. Our eyes were burning and it was difficult for us to even breath. I told Meera this time Delhi is worse than before. Meera second my thought.

We took a taxi and checked in the same hotel we had checked in last time.

After freshening up we left for Ruchika’s house wearing masks and covering our eyes with glares.

Upon reaching, I saw that the sewage at the front door of Ruchika was clean but apart from that nothing had changed. The main door was open and Ruchika’s father was surrounded by his friends. He was normal, though Meera and I were in tears. He looked at us and started crying but instantly stopped on his own saying that his health could get affected if he cried too much.

Ruchika’s father told us that she was perfectly fine and was out of her depression. It was a usual day for them when all of sudden Ruchika complained that she could not breathe properly and asked me to take her to the hospital.

I went to my friend’s house to ask what should be done. We called an ambulance. She was screaming and asking me to save her but by the time we reached the hospital, the doctors declared her dead.

I had too many questions in my mind but I had to stop myself. Still, sometimes you cannot control your thoughts and I spoke up: Sir, I believe you have a car why didn’t you drive your car. You could have saved time?
He recklessly said: from the day my wife started going to the hospital I stopped driving. Ruchika had a driver who used to take her to the office. Ruchika used to pay him 25,000 rs because her monthly income was 3 lakh rupees. She could afford to keep a driver.

Oh God! I said to myself. This man is still talking about her salary!! Disgusting!!
Suddenly two men came to deliver crates of small Bisleri water bottles. I was staring at them with a question in my eyes when the old man said Ruchika’s sister Twinkle is arriving tonight from America. You know, once you are in America it is difficult to drink Indian local water. Hence, I have to make arrangements for her arrival.

I could not understand whether he was happy that his younger one was arriving or sad that his older one had left.

Meera and I were confused but Meera continued asking him if he needed any help?
He smiled and said he had already made arrangements for her younger daughter. He does not need any help.

We took leave from him telling that we would visit him tomorrow.
On our way back to the hotel, both of us were quiet. We had no words. We came here to attend a funeral but it seemed more of a celebration of the homecoming of a celebrity who stayed in America.

I told Meera that I am tired and I needed to take some rest. Meera too was tired. She agreed and went away to her room.

I was with me and my thoughts in my room wondering where Ruchika’s soul might be.

I always carry my Rider-Waite deck with me. I rhythmically pray to call upon Angels before doing any reading to help me with the correct answer. I did that and shuffled my cards thinking about Ruchika. The card of queen of cups came. That confirmed that she was safe with her mother. I was smiling and thanking God while collecting my cards, suddenly, one card flew out from the deck. It was The Empress that gave me a shock of my life because The Empress is related to the material world. I was confused, how can Ruchika be with her mother and at the same time in this world. I was very confused and also tired. I wrapped up everything, took a hot shower bath and had video chat with my family and slept.

It was 4 am in the morning when my room phone and my cell phone rang simultaneously. I was scared and the fear took over me. Why both the phones were ringing at the same time!!!

Chapter 7 The silence

The energy of the room which was so full of misery, anger at one point, seemed clean and clear now. Our cryptic sides of life, our struggles flashed before our eyes but we let it go. After all, it was the story of yesterday.

Ruchika took a deep breath and said I am sorry everyone. I became selfish and could only feel my suffering. I could not understand anything else.You were right Julie, I at least got three chances. I am really sorry for your loss. Well, no point in remembering them who do not belong to this world now or maybe we all are missing them because its No Moon day tomorrow. My mother used to say that on No Moon day our dead ones visit us and it is indeed a good thing to feed a hungry person or donate something in the temple because that nurtures their soul.

Mr. Greengrass, I would definitely serve hungry people tomorrow if that can be counted as service. She was smiling now and Richard smiled back and nodded in affirmation.

It appeared to all of us that we were able to revive her back to life. It seemed she understood the importance of life. I added, also please do clean your house. Sell or donate all the unwanted things like ancient electronic items which are lying in your drawing room covered with mountains of dust.

That was the time she laughed and said you scrutinized my house well. I will definitely do that. Anything else you want me to do?

I smiled and said please keep those vagrants out of your home. It looked more like their house than yours. Your house stinks with the foul smell of these people and also please get the sewage outside your home cleaned immediately. That’s it for now.

My God Julie I am impressed. You could be a great investigator.You looked in and around very minutely she said smilingly.

Indeed I did. It is my job and what I have told you is only half of what I saw in your home. You need to get the walls of your house painted too but that’s another story, we shall talk about it later.

She was smiling and I could see this time it was not that half smile. It was her heart blooming with smiles. She stood up to leave.

Bob stopped her and inquired, by the way, when will you travel to New York. I knew the reason he asked for because he winked at me while asking her this question.

She didn’t notice that as she was busy searching for something in her purse. She answered well, maybe the day after tomorrow. She looked at him after she found what she was searching for in her bag. It was her cell phone.
Bob quickly handed over his business card and asked her to keep in touch.

She took the card smilingly and left while speaking to someone over the phone.
I hugged Bob thanking him for his help. We all heaved a sigh of relief. Diverting our minds from Ruchika to other stuff because somewhere our pandora’s box that was open had to shut down.

Bob left our house at 3 am in the morning. We could afford late nights and early morning departure of our guests since our kids were yet to take their first baby steps to school life. They were tiny toddlers and our best antidote to any sad situations. While playing with them we would not know how time would fly.

Days passed in weeks and weeks in months but we had no news of Ruchika. I tried asking Meera about her in between but she too was busy in bringing up her toddlers. Hence would not get time to speak to her but said that she forward her jokes and sometimes Ruchika reciprocates by forwarding another one to her.

There was silence in our world. Tornado called Ruchika was silent and somewhere in my “me” time, I would think why this episode had happened in my life? What was the insight that God was trying to send me by bringing Ruchika to my life? However, every time I drew a card thinking about this situation, I would get the high priestess card. The high priestess card often signifies deeply hidden secrets.
I wondered what clue I was missing on but then I would get busy with daily life.

When I spoke to Richard about her one fine day, he said you cannot help anyone who does not require your help.

On that same night, I dreamt of a horrible ghost following me. My husband and sister were trying to help me rescue but this black horrible ghost refused to go and suddenly it turned into a woman who was wearing torn clothes and seemed to be in pain. I was scared but my husband and sister supported me in my dream they were pushing me to move forward to help her.

As I went ahead and touched her shoulder a white light sparked and she turned into a blossomed rose, I saw happiness on my face. We all watered that plant and moved on.

I woke up bewildered and told Richard about my dream. He interpreted my dream as something negative is about to come that would scare me and later with his and my sister’s help I would be able to turn that negative into positive or let’s say giving life to something or someone.

He told me to maintain a dream journal as sometimes our subconscious mind tries speak to us through our dreams.

The day started happily. It was a big day for our toddlers. They were going to take their first step in the world of education. It was time for them to join play school and that made us say goodbye to our late night’s parties.

I was happy and engrossed in the new chapter of my life where I would be guiding my kid’s steps.

Richard and I decided that we both would go together to drop the kids at school today. Richard was excited and making the video on how we got them ready for the first day. We were clicking pictures and in those happy moments, out of the blue, my phone beeped.

Chapter 6 Adamant Ruchika

Embrace your pain. The begining