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An open gate

Diwali was near and I had decided it was my time to leave the world. My depression, my inability to bear my body pains and seeing my family suffer in my suffering, somewhere manipulated my soul to leave this world. I convinced myself that I was not required. My depression took over me and I could not bear the pain, in my mind. I wrought my situation on how my responsibilities were over towards my family. I convinced myself that my teenage daughter would be taken care by my husband and an older son who was married by now will lead his life peacefully with his wife. I even convinced myself that my husband would be relieved from the everyday tension of monetary expenses of the hospital once I left. Somehow with all the pros and cons I convinced the angel of death that it was time for me to travel to the other world.

I was happy when Angel of Death heard my plea and within minutes helped me to leave this sick and tired body.  My soul felt free from all the aches and pains within minutes but hardly did my soul realise that I was being selfish. I had shredded my body but I was still emotionally connected to the worldly affairs.

I saw my son pleading with the doctor. My daughter praying and requesting God to bring me back and my beloved husband had gone numb. His heart was broken and he refused to talk to anyone while sitting in one corner and crying silently.

Angel of death: so you realise now how they want you so desperately.

My soul: I thought they would move on

Angel of Death: They will in time. Come with me now. The white light is waiting for you or you want to stay till your funeral gets over.

My soul: I would like to see to prove myself that no one desired my presence because I was sick

Angel of death smiled and disappear saying- So be it!!

Soon I saw my sisters also mourning my death and pleading with God to send me back to life.

Angel of death whispered once again all are emotions and soon you will see them dissolving

During my funeral, I saw my colleagues and friends crying for me. I could hear each and everyone praying and asking me to return.

My soul too cried but as I realised it was too late to go back in the same body.

Angel of Death took my hand and we moved towards an open gate that was my first step towards another beautiful world, but I could still hear my family cries. I stopped and questioned Angel of Death what if I want to go back, can you take me back?

 

Angel of death laughed and said if you wanted to go back so desperately why did you call me in the first place!

My soul apologised but I knew I had made him angry very angry somewhere. I was being emotional. I saw him laughing out loud.

 

Angel of Death: Those who are crying and praying for you would soon forget you. They would soon go back to their routine life and you would no longer be missed so desperately. Trust me and come with me now.

 

My soul: No, they cannot I know now and I dominated my thoughts for how much I am wanted one more time to return back to my family.

 

This time, he calmly pushed me and took me towards my higher self, the Guardian Angel of my soul.

Angel of Death said his job is to make souls cross this gate. After that, he does not hold any responsibility.

Angel of Death: If you want to go back to earth talk to your higher self and saying this he vanished!

We do not need words to communicate in this world. This world was much beautiful with different colours. I was mesmerised by the beauty and wanted to stay here but again I was interrupted with the desperate cries of my family.

 

Higher self: Come let’s see the life you have lived

My soul: I don’t want to. I want to go back to them at the earliest

Higher self: But they would be fine without you soon. Forget all emotions and concentrate on the reasons you were born for. Let’s see what you have learnt from the life you have just finished. Whether you passed the test given or not.

My soul: No, I failed. I failed drastically when it came to emotions. I easily gave up. I manipulated the situation and called Angel of death to take me away

Higher self: hmmm, sit with me and watch your last life on earth.

I sat with him and realised how miserably I failed. I was able to give love but failed when it came to receiving love in return.

Higher self: Would you like to repeat your lesson with the same family

I immediately agreed

But this time, I would make your lesson tougher.  Are you ready for that he asked

All I wanted was to go back to my family to undo the pain I had given to them and I agreed in haste without calculating the pros and cons, without discussing how. I left heaven without getting ready for the situations I would be facing on earth. At that time my soul was desperate to take birth but my Guardian Angel took care of everything for me and before leaving informed me that my intuition would be strong so strong that it would be disturbed by the evil and also the open gate would be closed for me until the time I would finish my lesson. He also told me that he would communicate with me from time to time. I would remember the glimpse of my last life but not everything. I quickly agreed and in seconds I was in the body of a newborn child.

All I didn’t realise was that how it would be tougher this time. I was my daughter’s son. As soon as I was born my daughter got divorced and went back to her paternal house. We were all back together in the same house, where my husband my son and daughter in law resided. They all were happy.

Each day was beautifully and life was a celebration one more time. Days turned into week and week into years I was a grown up man by now and was doing well with my life, falling in and out of love, kind of a Casanova. I never knew how tough could be my lessons with time.

One day, suddenly, I fell in love with Nidhi. I was so blind in love that I left home. I left all those people for whom I had come back .

Yes, I left home! I left those who I came back for and when I started losing them one by one  I realised my stupid mistake . I wanted everyone back . I wanted to tell them how sorry I am one more time but none of them returned including Nidhi .I was lonely so lonely that I called Angel of death one more time to take my soul away but no one came. I had the power to communicate with my dead one I pleaded them to return but each one of them took birth one or the other place and I realised how stupid I was. My hasty decision of coming back to earth that too in the same family was wrong . I saw  all of them turning their back on me one by one and moving ahead, none of them turned back and I sat there with watery eyes calling them. Nobody bothered to hear and each one of them took their journey and I now realised that emotion with time dissolve. It’s just we should give some time to them to dissolve. I requested my higher self to call me and one day in my dreams I saw myself standing at the open gate again. I rejoiced but the minute I tried to enter I was thrown back by my higher self-saying it’s you who choose to go back to the same family now finish your lessons and then come.

Nidhi was quietly listening to me. I especially called her to tell my story and to make a plea so that she would return back to me but instead she immediately stood up.

Nidhi: look I think you need to see a psychiatrist. These are all hallucination, past life does not exist and it is not me who made you lose your family. We thought we were in love but things didn’t work out, you cannot blame all on me. Go get a life.

She just walked away and I kept looking if only once she would turn and look at me but she didn’t .

All I could see that my wife too thought I was losing my mind and I let her go.

My mother was old and I did not have any family to carry my name ahead. I had Nidhi but she too did not understand me. What a tough lesson I had. All I am doing is living this life in a routine waiting for the gate to open for me soon.

But miracles happen only when you least expect them too. I met Sonia. She was someone who understood me and I was happy again.

One fine day, my long forgotten plea was heard suddenly but by this time I had someone else in my life who loved me the way I wanted her to. I didn’t want to go I had kids. My mother was  enjoying being a grandma . No, I cannot go now! Angel of death laughed and said nothing changed in you . You are back to square one with the same plea and same urge to love this family but this time, my guardian angel opened the gate and welcomed me. I could again hear cries of my mother and my family but I knew what mistake I did one more time…

My guardian angel said I still have a chance to go back since I was in a comma in my earthly life right now. He introduced my elder son as my son in previous life. My younger was my grandfather and the cutest doll who was just born was a new addition to the family. She was my lover in 1400 BC and lost me she chose to be with me one more time . He smiled and said go if you want to go.

I did not want my next life to be tougher. I watched my life with my higher self and said I would like to stay here for some time before taking a decision whether I should come out of comma or plan my next life. My guardian angel smiled and here I am one more time with new birth but doing the same old things. Nothing has changed a bit in the time. My cutest daughter in last life is my steady girlfriend and we are going to get married soon. This time, I chose another family but stayed connected with the previous one. This is my life on earth again and again!

Moral of the story: Don’t call upon Angel of Death just because you are in your testing time because she will appear only when you would be in your happy time and if you refuse to leave you will keep on taking birth for this one lesson every time until you understand that you are here on a vacation (the biggest lesson) so stop brooding and start enjoying!!!!

 

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Teena and her Krishna

 

Teena was a woman who strongly believed in Krishna. A staunch devotee she leads her life  surrendering it all  to Krishna’s will.

She faced  many obstacles and misfortunes like every human does but she faced them with courage and kept praying to Krishna for guidance. Krishna, in return, was very happy with her devotion but one day he thought of testing Teena’s faith.

 

He had given Teena everything she had desired for. Job, money, status, marriage, respect, fame and two beautiful kids (a boy and a girl). In return, Teena had  kept her attitude of gratitude towards Krishna until the time she really got busy in bringing up her kids, One  fine day she decided to become a housewife and divert all her time and energy for a better future for her kids .Her husband supported her decision  happily.

 

As the time passed by , her love and duty towards others were left ignored. Her world was only her kids. They were growing well !!

 

Teena was most attached to her son. One day out of the blue her son introduced her to Sandhya announcing that he wanted to marry her. The moment she saw that girl she became insecure. She could not lose her son to just any girl. A mother’s heart was not ready for this !!

 

Poor Teena’s worst fears came true with her son and daughter-in-law deciding to move out and start their own little paradise.

 

Teena started playing the role of victim. She would tell everyone how cruel her daughter in law was and how she had taken her son away. She said all the bad things about her daughter in law in the hope of that one day her daughter in law will get tired of hearing all this leaving her  son and go away from their lives.This way her son will come back to her .But nothing helped her in getting her son back. Time passed by and Teena was diagnosed with a disease which would kill her. She knew it was her subconscious effort to call her son back , her manipulation towards the situation . She was losing everything.

 

Soon came the time when doctors realized that this was the end. They told Teena’s husband to pray and ask for the miracle of God. Teena’s husband made a frantic call to their son and  begged  him to visit his mother. The boy promised that he would come once a week. Teena’s husband heart was broken and  crying he went to  Krishna temple. He sat there with tears flowing from his closed eyes. The priest gave him flowers and said may your sorrow be taken away by Krishna . Looking at the priest he took those flowers and on reaching home he  kept those flowers under the pillow of semi-conscious Teena who could see her husband through her blurry vision but could not talk.

 

Teena’s daughter prayed hard for a miracle and slept on the bedside of her mother with teary eyes.

 

That night Teena had a visitor in her dreams it was her long lost friend, her guide, philosopher her Krishna !!!

 

Krishna: You have forgotten me in this drama of life Teena. Why didn’t you call me !!

Teena: Krishna my everything! The Maya of this world took over my conscious and I became a selfish person assuming that my situations ,my home my kids will never do anything against My will . I forgot all about the supreme power YOU!!!

 

Krishna: Controlling anything  in your world is an illusion you create Teena . Even a leaf can not move without my permission . Well, I am not happy to meet you this way

 

Teena: Krishna then why have you  come now when I have lost everything

Krishna: ( smilingly ) Everything!! You chose to lose everything. I gave you job, money , status , a wonderful husband and two kids to die for . I gave you whole furnished home . Your family and assets together make a home. Each and everything occupies a room in your heart, they conquer space in your mind according to what they mean to you but what did you do.You chose to close your eyes to everything and you put all the Moha in your son!! You left everyone and everything and just concentrated on one which now has become the reason for your misery.I came to meet you today at the request of your husband and daughter . I waited too long for your call but you never called me Teena!!

 

Teena ( with teary eyes):  I am sorry but I am unable to live without my son who has gone away from me to live his life with his wife .

Krishna : Anyone in this world will want to stay where there is affection. Even though parents take good care of their children throughout their  life, when children get married they feel they are getting more love from their own wife and children and prefer to stay with them. This is the nature of both humans and demigods. Have you seen birds flying after their kids, once they teach them how to fly? They leave them on their own to survive.  The problem with you is that you are not living in surrender situation you are holding on to your Ego which you call Love

 

Teena: You mean that I should not be protective about my Son and his well-being!

 

Krishna: Even my mother was protective but she did not interfere in my duties and karmas when our time of separation came. I too cried  from morning to evening but then I was born on this earth  as human to  help humankind. For me ,Vrindavana is rasa-bhumi, and Dvaraka and Mathura were karma-bhumi. Should I have also stayed only in  Vrindavana! Let your son go . Let him do what he was born for don’t be an obstacle . Love him and lead him whenever he wants but controlling him is a sheer stupidity.

 

Teena: But I am a mother . I have so much love in me for him only

 

Krishna showed a boy to Teena and asked who he was. Without wasting a second she said My son , my sunny boy. Krishna laughed and said he is your husband when he was young. he too  left his mother and chose to stay with you .Why were you so happy then.Did you ever think how that mother survived without her son!!

 

Teena was quietly looking at Krishna while once more  Krishan showed her a small beautiful girl child.  He asked her who is this now. Teena smiled and said it’s me, Krishna! Krishna  laughed again and said it’s not you.  It is your daughter who is still thirsty for your affection towards her. If you really have that motherly love left go give her your quality time and listen to her just listen cause she has not spoken for quite a long period.

 

He turned back and said don’t advise her as this is my job just listen to her . After uttering these words he started walking  Teena ran after Krishna asking for his forgiveness  but the light was so strong and bright that she could not see Krishna anymore. She opened her eyes and saw  her husband sleeping holding a cushion in his hand on a sofa and her daughter sleeping on her bedside holding her hand .

 

Her eyes were watery but she felt good and strong inside , She woke up and before keeping her feet on earth uttered the name of Krishna so loudly that the husband and daughter both woke up and seeing her in a better condition smiled. She asked forgiveness from both of them for ignoring them for long and realized that she is on earth for her mission not to control her kid’s mission with the learning of Krishna she then lived her life again praising his name and in surrender situation.