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Living this life


Here I am lying on the bed

With tubes in my mouth

They think I am dead

May be I am in their thoughts

Coz now I am an old woman

Who no one wants

Once I built a nest with my husband

Living our lives together in abundance

I recalled being a beautiful bride

Proved myself as the magnificent wife

My beauty was incomparable at that time

People often used to squat in front of me like I am divine

With my chin up I used to walk around like a queen

Abandoning my relations with those who played with me when I was a little child

Slowly from a wife I became a mother

I walked on to a step further

Soon our nest was filled with little birds

Those tiny beings were our world

With our love and care we nurtured them

They were our prince and princess

Our world together with them was like a sparkling gem

Then suddenly my king left this world

Leaving me alone I was shattered and cold

My princess took care of me at that time

But she flew away with her destiny in time

I was again lonely and crying

Wondering what my life was

I tried to make connections with those

Who I abandoned in pride

I was ashamed and I was losing my beauty

All I have was plenty of diamonds and dimes

Love was not near to me

My heart refused to shine

I was isolated in a dark room

Where all I had was a ghastly stench

This was cleaned by my servants from time to time

The only face who entertained me was of my servant

Prince and princess were far behind

 I missed their attention

In that dark room and at horrid nights all I could do was to think about the happy times

Memories of my husband made me live my life

I have played all the roles God wanted me to be

I have been a good wife

I have burnished every ones lives

I took care of my kids

I took care of my grand child

What do I have to do now?

Wait for the death which can make me reunite

With the love that I time lost in time

I could not see light

My relationship contract with everyone was almost over

My mind refused to work

All I could remember once I was a beautiful dame

Once I had lived a story of love

Building my nest now I am nothing but an old woman full of shame

Living in that dark room leading a lonely life

Disease and Agony chose to be my  best friends

They promised to be by my side till the end

Once I was a beautiful queen

Now I am a lonely Old woman wanting to be loved by my birdies

Alas they are busy in their own life nurturing the nest they built minus me

Here I am lying on the bed

With tubes in my mouth

They think I am dead

Am I really dead?

Maybe in their lives







I was born up in Delhi and has been living in the city since then; I have completed my graduation from the Delhi University. I come from a respectable and close-knit family. As an individual, my endearing nature and cheerful personality makes me popular among friends. I am an avid reader – I am fond of reading anything to do with spiritualism, psychology, the psychic realm, reincarnations and autobiographies. My favorite authors include Brain Weiss, Paulo Coelho, Brian Tracy, Gary Chapman, Louise Hay and Doreen Virtue, Sudha Murthy, Priya Kumar among many others. I feel my connect with books not only enhances my knowledge but also inspires me. I have put a pen to my thoughts and created book of poems called Love beyond Veils, book of short stories The golden hour and the gang of wonder kids available on amazon and Flipkart I am also fond of music and plays the guitar too. I have keenness in mysticism and the occult – I am a certified Pranic and Reiki healer, Angel therapist, Tarot Card reader and an astrologer. I share a deep love for animals and this is reflected in the fact that I took up the healing courses ostensibly to alleviate the suffering of stray animals. I practice meditation too. Professionally, I began my career with an international airline; then switched to work for diplomatic missions. I sat for the IELTS (International English Language Testing System) exam in 2009 to test and enhance my knowledge in the language.

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