Living this life

Here I am lying on the bed
With tubes in my mouth
They think I am dead
May be I am in their thoughts
Coz now I am an old woman
Who no one wants
Once I built a nest with my husband
Living our lives together in abundance
I recalled being a beautiful bride
Proved myself as the magnificent wife
My beauty was incomparable at that time
People often used to squat in front of me like I am divine
With my chin up I used to walk around like a queen
Abandoning my relations with those who played with me when I was a little child
Slowly from a wife I became a mother
I walked on to a step further
Soon our nest was filled with little birds
Those tiny beings were our world
With our love and care we nurtured them
They were our prince and princess
Our world together with them was like a sparkling gem
Then suddenly my king left this world
Leaving me alone I was shattered and cold
My princess took care of me at that time
But she flew away with her destiny in time
I was again lonely and crying
Wondering what my life was
I tried to make connections with those
Who I abandoned in pride
I was ashamed and I was losing my beauty
All I have was plenty of diamonds and dimes
Love was not near to me
My heart refused to shine
I was isolated in a dark room
Where all I had was a ghastly stench
This was cleaned by my servants from time to time
The only face who entertained me was of my servant
Prince and princess were far behind
 I missed their attention
In that dark room and at horrid nights all I could do was to think about the happy times
Memories of my husband made me live my life
I have played all the roles God wanted me to be
I have been a good wife
I have burnished every ones lives
I took care of my kids
I took care of my grand child
What do I have to do now?
Wait for the death which can make me reunite
With the love that I time lost in time
I could not see light
My relationship contract with everyone was almost over
My mind refused to work
All I could remember once I was a beautiful dame
Once I had lived a story of love
Building my nest now I am nothing but an old woman full of shame
Living in that dark room leading a lonely life
Disease and Agony chose to be my  best friends
They promised to be by my side till the end
Once I was a beautiful queen
Now I am a lonely Old woman wanting to be loved by my birdies
Alas they are busy in their own life nurturing the nest they built minus me
Here I am lying on the bed
With tubes in my mouth
They think I am dead
Am I really dead?
Maybe in their lives…………………